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Petra's avatar

Please forgive my long reply.

Seasonal depression is a rotten thing to have to suffer through. If you aren’t feeling the benefit with your current therapist, is there any way you can find another? Sometimes it takes multiple goes to find someone who is right for you. It galls me to admit it, but exercise and being out in the sun does help with seasonal depression, though. It’s not a cure, but it does help lessen the severity of it.

Being a caregiver is a monumental physical and emotional task. Don’t feel bad in comparison to others who go on about all the fabulous things they have accomplished. All of them will have had times of suffering, they just aren’t talking about it. And to be honest, surviving is an enormous achievement, even if it doesn’t feel like a fun one.

Spring will come, even though our brains lie to us and tell us winter will last forever.

I send all the hugs your way.

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rachel selene's avatar

this whole message was such a kind and much-needed reminder, thank you <3 as of this writing, i HAVE found a new therapist and i'm feeling more hopeful about this one! i was also able to get outside for a walk with actual sunshine recently and that felt great. trying to take small steps!!

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Petra's avatar

That’s great news!

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epistemology's avatar

I've been feeling similarly recently, so I wish you all the strength to continue. May we both find some hope <3

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rachel selene's avatar

ugh i am sorry you're feeling the same!!! sending a hug your way

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El's avatar

thanks for sharing this -- I'm sorry you are feeling so low, and I hope you're able to feel a little lighter soon! I'm sorry especially you've had such a bummer of an experience with therapy. it can be so hit or miss, and I feel like the misses can be so painful in and of themselves.

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rachel selene's avatar

thank YOU for this kindness!! i definitely feel like a major reason for my therapy hiatus 2019-2024 was because i didn't want to deal with the inevitable misses that came with finding a new therapist. but i persist

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